When Is It My Turn?

I know I'm ment for more then this
Ment for more then broken hearts and shattered dreams
Ment for more then just living day to day
More then just sitting on the sidelines
Watching life pass me by
I know I'm ment for something greater
But when is it my turn?

I see all these couples in love and holding hands
Rockstars with big dreams that came true
Life with a purpose
Something more then useless
I know it's written in a perfect plan
But God, when is it my turn?

Sometimes I just wanna run away
Don't wanna see another day break
Some days just feel so pointless
Like why waste it?
I wanna live, and live big
Carpe diem
Siezing my dream

Cause now it's my turn
And I'm not gonna run away
Holding Your hand
I know I can
A big dream coming true
Cause now I know You
My life has a purpose
So much more then useless
My perfect plan in action
Now it's my turn
God, now it's my turn

Scream!

You betrayed me
You've doomed us all
Doomed us all to a bloody, fiery death
And what did you gain?
A lifetime to spend alone
I won't be here to help you
I'll be long gone
In an inferno of tears

So keep walking
Till your feet fall off
And drop to your knees
While on your knees, pray!

Pray for someone to save you
Pray till your knees are bloody
Pray so that one day you may see
Just how bad you treated me

You'll never escape the voices in your head
They'll always remind you what you did
You can claw at your ears
But we will never shut up!

You can scream
But your conscience will always scream louder
We will not be silenced

So keep walking
Till your feet fall off
And drop to your knees
While on your knees, pray!

Pray for someone to save you
Pray till your knees are bloody
Pray so that one day you may see
Just how bad you treated me

Now scream!
But you can't escape it

Apologize!

But you will never be forgiven
Cry!
But you will never find rest

Just keep walking
Trekking through with bloody feet
Keep walking till you realize
I'm in a better place
You're the one in the inferno
You're the one who's doomed
You betrayed yourself
You're alone
I'm in the arms of my Saviour
And you're the one holding on to broken bones
So keep screaming!
Cause you can't escape it anyways

Clean Break

'A clean break is what you need'
The final words I heard as you left me
Your heart must be made of stone
Oh, you've turned so cold, my love
So steal my breath and break my bones
How could you leave and take all of me?
You're a cold-blooded killer
Taking from an unarmed girl
And leaving like you never felt anything
You took everything from me
Even what was left of my sanity
And all you left me was the gaping hole
This gaping hole in my chest
Chills me to my very core
You should've known better then to leave me alone
I still can't breathe without your arms around me
I miss you
Do you miss me?
Can you feel anything?
If you knew what was best you'd come back to me
I know that won't happen
You're so far gone
You've moved on
And forgot all about me
But all I have left to say is...
Please come back my dear
I miss you

Light At The End Of The Tunnel

Hey little beauty queen
How does it feel to be so loved at only eighteen?
Must be nice to have all eyes on you
Oh but the pressure to be perfect
Wait till the curtain closes
That's when it turns real
No lights
No glamour
And you're standing in the rain
The only one left to love you is yourself
And you don't even know how

No one knows your secret life
The pills you take
In the nights you shake
You're so alone
The scars you bear
And the whole time your heart aches
Would it be so hard for someone to come to your rescue?
You can pick your poison
But you can't choose the way you die

He lied to you didn't he?
'I love you baby'
Weren't those the words that spilled from his lips?
Since they sounded so sweet
You gave in didn't you sweetheart?
Now what's left?
Is anything sacred?
Do you even know who you are anymore?

No one knows your secret life
The pills you take
In the nights you shake
You're so alone
The scars you bear
And the whole time your heart aches
Would it be so hard for someone to come to your rescue?
You can pick your poison
And you just chose the way you're gonna die

I've been where you are
And let me tell you something
When it feels you're at the end of the rope
Nothing left to give or take
Keep holding on
He will comfort you if you only ask
When all you see is the headlights of a train coming
I see the Light at the end of your tunnel
Trust in Him
Believe me, I know

No one knows your secret life
The pills you take
In the nights you shake
You're so alone
The scars you bear
And the whole time your heart aches
Would it be so hard for someone to come to your rescue?
You can pick your poison
And you just chose the way you're gonna die

You can find a new life
One full of life and love
No wilted roses

Just gardens of blooming flowers
One without pain

The Creator of the universe knows YOUR name
And He has a plan
Just trust in Him
He will bring you comfort
You'll see rainbows on your darkest days
When the clouds cover the skies
Just trust in Him
Believe me, this I know
You'll find Life

Out Of Commission

Cried my last tear
Oh honey you bled me dry
Thought I was perfect
Well well well
You had it wrong
Time to show you who I really am

My halo's out of commission for the night
Go elsewhere if you're looking for an angel
No more trying to be perfect
I gave all that up today
Time to embrace the darkness
No more little princess
No more innocent little girl
She is long gone
See if you like me now

Delusional and on the fence
Hallucinations of a perfect world
Horns hold up the halo now
I'll be coming back for you
What a hollow hollow life you lead
Believing this whole lie
You'll be the perfect end to a perfect meal
Perfect to satisfy my appetite

My halo's out of commission for the night
Go elsewhere if you're looking for an angel
No more trying to be perfect
I gave all that up today
Time to embrace the darkness
No more little princess
No more innocent little girl
She is long gone
See if you like me now

Clouds

Now is when I feel alone
I let you go
Now there's a battle between flesh and spirit
And it's not looking to good for me
So I'm taking off
I'll fly away home
I'm headed to the clouds
And even you can't stop me now
But darling I'd love to see you try

I'm sitting in the clouds
And you're the first to pull me down
'Keep your feet on the ground' you say
'Stop hiding in the clouds'
But it's the only place I feel safe

You don't know what I've been through
Through these thoughts and the pain
When the night gets the darkest is when it starts
I scream into my pillow
And pray for the sunrise
I need the start of a new day
Something new to take away my pain
Blast the music to drown out silence
But everything about this place still feels hollow

I'm sitting in the clouds
And you're the first to pull me down
'Keep your feet on the ground' you say
'Stop hiding in the clouds'
But it's the only place I feel safe

I wish I knew what was real
Hallucinations of a better tomorrow with you
If you still want me in my broken state
I wouldn't blame you if you left me here
But baby I pray you won't
Stay by my side till the morning comes
Cause when I see that sunrise
I know that there is hope for me yet
Just stay with me till then
And I can promise youI'll change for the better

Falling For You (Hold Me Tight)

So this is how falling for you feels
I swore it wouldn't happen
I swore against being another love sick puppy
But I know this time it's different
One look in those deep baby blue eyes
And boy, you know you got me

Hold me tight
Kiss me love
Say you'll do anything I ask
You know you're my only one
I don't want anyone else
It sounds so cliche, but it's all I know

Those long summer nights
With you by my side
Those drives by the lake
Those silly songs we listened to
With the windows down
And the volume up
Singing at the top of our lungs
And that's when I knew you were mine
The moment no one else mattered
And all I could see was you

Hold me tight
Kiss me love
Say you'll do anything I ask
You know you're my only one
I don't want anyone else
It sounds so cliche, but it's all I know
Hold me through the storms

The thunder and lightning can be so frightening
Hold me through the winter nights
The snow so cold
But a smile so warm it can melt through the chill
Hold me during the summer days
Laying on the beach
Hold me in the chill autumn air
Leaves blowing everywhere
None of it matters
As long as you're by my side

Hold me tight
Kiss me love
Say you'll do anything for me
And I'll love you forever and beyond

Never Back Down!

Been under the covers too long
Afraid to see my own shadow
Cowering in fear from something unknown
It's my time to stand up
My time to take authority over this
It's my time to stand up and never back down

When all your hope has disappeared
When you've given into your fears
In the dark you're all alone
And your heart needs a home
Don't give in
Break out of the mold
Scream the words you feel

Don't let the enemy bind you
Don't let his lies bind you
We have the power to take him down
We need to learn to stand our ground
Learn to never back down

When all your hope has disappeared
When you've given into your fears
In the dark you're all alone
And your heart needs a home
Don't give in
Break out of the mold
Scream the words you feel

Keep holding on
Even when it seems there is nothing to hold on to
Stand your ground
Don't let your guard down
Let out a battlecry
And charge the gates
Rattle the bones
And slay your enemy

Just remember this
You're much to strong to back down
Even when all hope has disappeared
Even when you gave into those fears
If you're in the dark
I'll come and rescue you
Just stand up
Fight back
And never back down!